When Carolina and Trevor meet on their first day of school, something draws them to each other. They gradually share first kisses, first touches, first sexual experiences. When they’re together, nothing else matters. But one of them will make a choice, and the other a mistake, that will break what they thought was unbreakable. Both will wish that they could fall in love again for the first time . . . but first love, by definition, can’t happen twice.
Told in Carolina and Trevor's alternating voices, this is an up-close-and-personal story of two teenagers falling in love for the first time, and discovering it might not last forever.
TWO OUT OF FIVE STARS
*A special thanks to the publisher for this review copy*
Gah. This book. I am amazed by myself. I pat myself on the back for finishing it. Because man, it was touch and go quite a few times.
Let's just get to this. This book is clearly for someone in their very early teens. I couldn't appreciate this book. I am too old. It wasn't the love, or the fact that it was young love because duh, I read YA. But this had to be one of the most angsty books I've ever read in YA.
Teens are insecure, heck adults are insecure. People are just insecure, some of us, of course. But this love, it was brutal, and always up for question. The main characters had am internal struggle with their budding love, throughout the entire book, and that made it hard for me to enjoy.
There was constant back and forth, does he love me, does she really love me, for the entirety of the book. The. Entirety. Of. The. Book.
I get it. They're young, and insecure, and unsure, and still learning. Point made. Got it. But geez was it hard to read. Hard. To. Read.
I definitely found the girl's perspective harder to bear. She was whiny all the time. She was insecure about everything. She questioned everything. She internally argued with herself about everything. It was like an epic one-sided battle. On the one hand I can see how that could be realistic. It's tough to be a teen. But it was a bit too much for me.
Here's an example of what I mean:
"I like you too," I said. Oh. My. Gosh. I said I liked a boy. To his face. And he has said he liked me. What did this mean? I MUST KNOW WHAT IT MEANS OR I WILL DIE..."
It's this kind of questioning that goes on throughout the book. Cute to some. Aggravating to me. She was very dramatic. Very. Everything was like this huge deal and I honestly don't know how she dealt because I just couldn't even.
Trevor's perspective was very similar but less dramatic. He's a guy. I don't want to use this review to deter anyone from reading it. I just want to do the job of warning readers of what they're getting themselves into.
I've seen reviewers both professional and not dub this tale emotionally gripping, and how much you'll be rooting for this couple. Hog wash. Okay, maybe not. It was emotional and I was rooting for them, to break up. That was a little mean, but my truth.
This book felt way too long, emotionally superfluous, draining and down right exhaustingly frustrating. I can't tell you to read this, and I can't tell you to read it.
Just know what you're getting. It was honest. It did have that but at the end (which was also annoying, I might add) it didn't matter.
This book is for someone. I know it. That person is just not me. At all.